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January 02 2018

January 08 2017

Close to the edge

There's a part of me that's getting on with things, doing day-to-day stuff, living what is left of my life...
That's what people are seeing. Good work, keep it up, it'll get better.

That part is a shell.


Inside, the rest of me is closer to the abyss than ever. There's no hope left, no future I want.
All the things that once brought me joy are now spiked with pain.

I really don't know if I can hold it together much longer.
I don't have any reserves left.


Right now, I'm going away for a week.

I'll carry on through that, as well as I can, but...
when I come back - if I come back - it might not be for long.


Everyone keeps telling me they're sorry.
It doesn't change anything or make anything better.


But, in case I don't get back to this later;
in case the abyss turns out to be even closer than I thought...

I'm sorry.

November 27 2016

Well, ten years of happiness was a good run, I guess.

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